September 19th

The final night in the mansion. The night before the finale. Tomorrow is to be the most definitive day of my life. No matter what happens, the trajectory of my life will be altered forever. My focus is on showcasing all that I am to INXS. I have grown so much musically & vocally over the past 12 weeks and I want to be the best performer I can possibly be. MiG, J.D. and I have gotten to take this incredible journey all the way to the finish. INXS has a tough decision and I am going to go out swinging. I respect whatever decision they make but I need everyone to know that I'm going into this finale with my guns blazing and putting it all out on the line. I have never had such an important day. Excitement runs through my finger tips as I write this. I know I am truly alive and will remember this day for the rest of my life. I believe I have gotten this far based on the strength of my family and friends. I am a mere reflection of my amazing family and incredible friendships defined throughout my life. I want to say that I have not changed because of this experience, I have grown I have grown closer to all of those people that I have been away from for 12 weeks. What a lucky break I got being picked for this show. I have always felt like the underdog and it fuels me to get stronger with each performance. My reprise performance of "Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd is for all those close to me that are not at here with me in LA at the moment. I owe all of this to the support of my band "Lovehammers" my brothers in music and friends for life. I owe all this to my family that I love and respect so much. I understand that this final entry is really deep and maybe overly potent, but at this juncture in my life I mean my words. Whatever happens is exactly what is supposed to happen. I respect my fate.